Returning my letters to students today. I remember writing this one for myself @ 2pm in the room with no windows. I remember feeling the stress so intensely that I had trouble concentrating and thought I was writing nothing important. I was so wrong. Snippets, here, I will share with you. I hope that my students have similar revelations when they read their own words from only 10 weeks ago.
"I want to be proud of the work I have done and the relationships I have built… I want to feel connected to others and confident that I am able to make it on my own. I want to be bald & Freckled & [ ] and all those things with my best suit on… to be tender and not jaded… I want to be more in control of the way I respond to being left out & remain myself through it all… I hope to not mess up anything in a big way, but if I do, know that it was really with the best intentions"
Some of these I have met. Some things I have messed up. But my intentions have been best and I know that to be true. and I see the space that was open in me, that I was ready to grow (and I have). Ready to open more space: Ready for lives long of 10 weeks strong. Humans are interesting creatures, they really are. And I am one, I am human. [and so are you].